Bell Jar

This story is very hard to understand. The part i want to focus on is when the main character has sex. During the whole process she seemed to know what she wanted and remained calm the whole time. There were points where i thought that she was going to flip out, such as when she starts to bleed uncontrollably. I was almost sure that she was going to die with the types of words that the author was using to describe the scene. In the end she physically got what she wanted but i feel not what she mentally wanted. It didnt seem like her waiting was worth it.